#crapenglishgrammarwritten because i cant think now , im blabbering

am i useless girlfriend?

-idontknow </3

you said im annoying recently .

i am such a FAIL girlf :(

#im just afraid to lose you , nothing else.

#iloveyou and thats all i know.

#iloveyou forever & always.

#i’ll do anything for you as long you’re with me.

#baby please dont leave me.

#i need you.

#if you could just read my mind & understand me.

#its all about mutual relationship and understanding.

#i’m sorry i’m weak and i cry easily , its just that i am too tired trying to be tough outside when i’m not.

#if i could read your mind too.

#you’re mine forever , i’m selfish i know.

-im hurt,

but you say u hurt more than me.

and why?
the cold attitude u have to me,the broken promises,the lies , etc.

yet you say im a troublemaker, my attitude is horrible & stuff.

not like you did not do it before.

its because what you did to me made me like this.

who i am now because of you.

oh yeah i miss the last time me , a proud girl who fights what rights for myself.

but nw because of you i listen to you ,

im weak , im useless , im a ‘troublemaker’ like you said.

how hurt are you ? more than me?

i cry almost every fucking day because of you.

its hard for me to breath everytime.

i have nightmare everytime .

even in the dreams i was crying.

but i try to stay strong physically.

trying to be your type.

everyone tell me , ” jane are you stupid ? why do you still love him even how he treat you ? “

because i love him. i know im stupid , it doesnt bother me.

why when you need me or love me so much that time you come to me,

when you dont need me you just think im a burden in your life.

you say my mum annoying , i agree.

i live with her , how do i feel? horrible.

but what can i do? 

that is just our parents right?

no need matter about other people , just us cant you do that?

i dont mind sacrifice my life my time my effort on you.

i dont mind it at all.

but you seem to have given up on me alot.

the reason why i always give that fuck face 

and dont tell you the reason because i know that everytime when i want to talk to you about it you would blame me or its just my fault or you think that i wanna hurt u n stuff.

i tried talking to u but it always same thing happen.

im tired of it , i just want you to realize ur self and reflect it.

not just asking me and scolding me..

you said if this continue on our love wont last long..

and u feel so sad , etcs.

im a very emotional person and feelings have been filling my heart.

im in pain too , cant u see?

you nvr once ask me are you sad are you hurt?

they say a couple must be understanding .

i am trying my best to change n understand you.

but i dont see any effort on you.

you say you nvr do many things or skip it because of me.

since when im so evil?

if its important ill let you do,

but if u promise me to do that of cause i expect you to dont break promise,

if i can sacrifice my time for you , why cant you.

i also can be a BEST GIRL if im not with u this long.

but i cant continue my life without you.

and my life will be worst without you.

im hungry of love attention understanding .

im selfish to myself.

anything wrong with that? no.

i just need to keep praying ..

hoping things will be fine.. <3

i dont like you hanging with them so much ,

they are such immature , unsincere in love, keep going out , 

gamble freak guys.

i dont want you to be influenced.

i dont want you to be like them.

im worried , scared.

like what happen yesterday , i dont want it happen anymore.

you wont know how i feel unless it happen to me.

do you know im so sad?

i dont want you to be ’ got friends no girlfriend ’ .

everytime u go out with them , even if im there , 

you always stick to them and leaving me aside.

i dont like it..

everytime you so late reply my text .

sleep until so late everyday .( its not good to sleep so much ! )

get angry without knowing my feelings.

everything should be discussed baby , do u know that?

i miss our old times .

rushing to reply / text back , 

talk on phone for hours and hours everyday ,

post sweet things on each of our wall everyday,

act cute when skyping,

that time you’ll do anything for me.

even cry for me.

now? .. idk